A personal victory

I have to admit that posting my first entry to my blog has been somewhat scary for me. It is one of the most personal things I have ever written, and it is certainly the most personal piece of writing that I've ever shared with other people. After having written it down, I had doubts on whether to publish it or not. And even after I've put in on the web, I still needed a couple of days to convince myself that I wanted, maybe even needed, to share it with other people.

Fortunately, the need to share my thoughts and feelings proved to be stronger than the fear, that same fear I've been struggling with for as long as I can remember. I have already acknowledged that that fear will forever remain a part of me. Though there will still be many occassions that I will feel hampered by it, I try not to let it rule over my life anymore, as it has often done so in the past. I know I still have a long way to go. But if I compare myself to how I was as recent as ten years ago, I also know that I've come a long way already.

Here's a final note to those who read my first post and are worried about me being too negative about myself. Don't. As paradoxical as it may sound, that negativity is an essential step for me to acquire a more positive attitude towards myself in the end.