An Open Letter to Myself: Part II

Dear me,

You are such an idiot! You say that I drag you down, when in truth you are the one who drags us both down with your stupid hope. You say that I am the reason for your fear, when in truth your unrealistic expectations are the reason for your fear. You call me a dark presence, when in truth I am only protecting you against yourself. The higher your hopes are, the further you have to fall.

Just think back on the last couple of weeks. You fooled yourself into believing that there is hope (again that horrible word!), that there could be something more, but where has it gotten you? Exactly nowhere. The sad thing is that you really struggled to do your best, and that you have nothing to show for it. I bet that nobody is even aware of it. How often have you heard that you should try harder? Or even better still, why don't you just give it a try? Perhaps you will now finally face the truth after all these years of failure: your best is just not good enough.

Just as you will never get rid of me, I will probably never get rid of you. But if you think I am going to go along peacefully with your foolish ideas, you are even crazier than I thought. It would be fucking hilarious if I wasn't the same person as you, but as it is, you are hurting the both of us. So please spare us both the humiliation and stop acting like a fool.

Sincerely mine,

Daniel